一個人是孤單。
我是一個人。
寂寞是在一群人裏面，仍然是一個人。
我在一群人裏面，還是覺得一個人。
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Rain Rain Go Away~
Rain....The wind, so hastily blowing outside. My pot of plant also fell off and broke into pieces. Not only did the wind blow the pot into pieces, things that happened around me too shatter my heart into pieces.
Today marks the 7th day of my father being sick- fever, cough and asthma. After several persuasions, he still did not want to seek doctor’s advice. He prefers staying at home, popping those antibiotics (whom he consumes it himself) and resting at home. Anytime he felt he is not ok, he will take the antibiotic and pop them into his mouth (like eating smarties or mentos la). He is so stubborn, even when my aunties persuade him, he only cincai agree and yet he does not want to get into the car. His philosophy is that “ now no virus, later go hospital, sure kena virus one… cause hospital very dirty… packed with sick people… if he go inside there… the hospital atmosphere will cause him even worse. He somemore say hor.. doctors now all puasa la… sure no energy to treat him one… somemore the nurse hor… won’t care so much cause they no energy wor!!”
One problem haven’t finish.. another come. My auntie and her媳妇. All these while, both their relationship are not so good, as it’s always 婆婆 and媳妇 is not ngam de la. Until recently, not only they battle using mouth, they started to use their hands! The victim, not only both of them, but also my cousin brother. Poor him. Not only did he need to juggle between work and home, he still need to worry for this two woman’s affair. Like usual.. “公说公有理，婆说婆有理” SHE say she wrong… then SHE say she wrong!Aiyoyo..
Just now they started the fight again. My father asked me to go to her house to fetch my aunt out of the house, to another aunt’s house instead. My father does not want her to come over to our house, afraid my father’s virus will pass on to her. Now, she is resting in my second aunt’s house. The thing is…. My second aunt’s whole family will be going to Thailand tomorrow early in the morning. My third aunt house (in KL), another problem as two family members are having diarrhea now. Not so suitable to stay there too. Now only left our house….and that’s the last place my father wants her to be.
My aunt insist she not afraid of any virus now cause she doesn’t care about her death anymore as being hurt by the way her son “ doesn’t side her”. What can her son (my cousin brother) do wor? One is his wife, another is his mother. Who CAN he choose?? My cousin brother – stressed – hit his own head like a mad person and kept saying if this continues to be like this, he’ll commit suicide. It must be so hard on him.
Then, it’s about YM. YM date me to a movie yesterday and I agreed to have dinner with him tonight, only to get all these problems and I have to reject his invitations. And he understandably said that it I need any help, do discuss with him.
Coming back to my father, I forgot to say, he has depression all these while. In his mind, he always thinks that people wants to kill or threaten him. People smile at him also he think people want to 陷害him. If depression counts by percentage, I think his seriousness reached 98% liow!! Somemore all these while ask him see physiologist, he terbalik say we all crazy pulak!!! Haiya.. really duno what to do la.
Whatever la… now we persuade until sien already.
He want see doctor then see la.
He dunwan see doctor his pasal la.
Anyway… it’s HIS body ma.
He pain not I pain!!
Today marks the 7th day of my father being sick- fever, cough and asthma. After several persuasions, he still did not want to seek doctor’s advice. He prefers staying at home, popping those antibiotics (whom he consumes it himself) and resting at home. Anytime he felt he is not ok, he will take the antibiotic and pop them into his mouth (like eating smarties or mentos la). He is so stubborn, even when my aunties persuade him, he only cincai agree and yet he does not want to get into the car. His philosophy is that “ now no virus, later go hospital, sure kena virus one… cause hospital very dirty… packed with sick people… if he go inside there… the hospital atmosphere will cause him even worse. He somemore say hor.. doctors now all puasa la… sure no energy to treat him one… somemore the nurse hor… won’t care so much cause they no energy wor!!”
One problem haven’t finish.. another come. My auntie and her媳妇. All these while, both their relationship are not so good, as it’s always 婆婆 and媳妇 is not ngam de la. Until recently, not only they battle using mouth, they started to use their hands! The victim, not only both of them, but also my cousin brother. Poor him. Not only did he need to juggle between work and home, he still need to worry for this two woman’s affair. Like usual.. “公说公有理，婆说婆有理” SHE say she wrong… then SHE say she wrong!Aiyoyo..
Just now they started the fight again. My father asked me to go to her house to fetch my aunt out of the house, to another aunt’s house instead. My father does not want her to come over to our house, afraid my father’s virus will pass on to her. Now, she is resting in my second aunt’s house. The thing is…. My second aunt’s whole family will be going to Thailand tomorrow early in the morning. My third aunt house (in KL), another problem as two family members are having diarrhea now. Not so suitable to stay there too. Now only left our house….and that’s the last place my father wants her to be.
My aunt insist she not afraid of any virus now cause she doesn’t care about her death anymore as being hurt by the way her son “ doesn’t side her”. What can her son (my cousin brother) do wor? One is his wife, another is his mother. Who CAN he choose?? My cousin brother – stressed – hit his own head like a mad person and kept saying if this continues to be like this, he’ll commit suicide. It must be so hard on him.
Then, it’s about YM. YM date me to a movie yesterday and I agreed to have dinner with him tonight, only to get all these problems and I have to reject his invitations. And he understandably said that it I need any help, do discuss with him.
Coming back to my father, I forgot to say, he has depression all these while. In his mind, he always thinks that people wants to kill or threaten him. People smile at him also he think people want to 陷害him. If depression counts by percentage, I think his seriousness reached 98% liow!! Somemore all these while ask him see physiologist, he terbalik say we all crazy pulak!!! Haiya.. really duno what to do la.
Whatever la… now we persuade until sien already.
He want see doctor then see la.
He dunwan see doctor his pasal la.
Anyway… it’s HIS body ma.
He pain not I pain!!
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
天长地久?
字典确实有这个字。
那么人生里有这个字吗？
世界上有所为的天长地久吗?
有人这样写：
一个人爱得最深，也伤得最痛。
如果不曾用心爱你，离别的一刹，泪水不会如此不争气。
如果不曾用心爱你，没有你的日子，为何总也开心不起。
如果不曾用心爱你，不会不知疲倦只为见你一面。
如果不曾用心爱你，又怎会总去重温我们共同走过的足迹。
这样的爱。。。我敢吗？
那么人生里有这个字吗？
世界上有所为的天长地久吗?
有人这样写：
一个人爱得最深，也伤得最痛。
如果不曾用心爱你，离别的一刹，泪水不会如此不争气。
如果不曾用心爱你，没有你的日子，为何总也开心不起。
如果不曾用心爱你，不会不知疲倦只为见你一面。
如果不曾用心爱你，又怎会总去重温我们共同走过的足迹。
这样的爱。。。我敢吗？
很沉，很沉重.....
今天心感觉很重。
很沉，很沉重。
前3天还和他有说有笑，今天他却躺在箱子里面，笑容没有了。就这样安静的睡在里面。
得知他‘离开’的讯息有两天了，没有什么感觉。 可能是还没能来得及反应吧。
直到今天，当我手上拿着两支香，突然心感觉重了起来。 脑在想着3天前的对话，今天忽然变成我替他烧香了。
向前两步，望了他一眼。
双眼闭着。很安详的躺着，睡着。
就这样。。。 我再也不会看到他了。
坐在一旁，等待着。 心想了好多好多。
旁边两个女孩，都哭得很凄凉。 嘴里喊着爸。。。爸。。。爸。。。
死者的太太，却一直痛哭不停。
让我心都痛了起来。 眼泪也跟着掉下来了。
伤事分三段。
第一段 棺材要关封的时候。
第二段 棺材要推进车子的时候
第三段 棺材要推进火化的时候／入土的时候
这三段都叫人看了痛心，心酸啊。。
尤其是第二段，车子要离开了，太太却不能跟上来。 只能在屋里痛哭。我也不知道是什么礼节。 太太不能送老公到火化场。 一个和他过了一辈子的女人，没得送他最后一段路。可见是多么伤心的事。可是这些就是礼节啊。 只能安慰太太留在屋里吧。
我们跟着车子走到大路，心想太太现在就这样一个人在家了。就这样，再也不能和老公相遇了。再也没能握老公的手了。太太必须面對失去的悲傷以及接受失去的遺憾。
多难受，伤感啊～
到了火化场，他的孩子们，又再次的大哭大喊着爸。。。爸。。。爸。。。
大女儿后来还晕了过去。之前就看她连走路都快不行了。身体无力，两脚没力站了。想必是这几天没好好睡觉休息吧。就这样，棺材没能推进火炉，（因为里面还有在烧着的。 所以要排队等）我们大伙就离开了。
带着重重的心情，回到公司上班。
想想希望今天的ladies nite可以（所谓的）安慰安慰我一下。好让我可以把心变轻一点。
最后，ladies nite忽然被取消了。 好像是丽蓉生病了。
不想就这样呆在家，于是约了WF吃日本餐。
想好好的吃一顿好料。 好让我心情愉快些。虽然没能变的很轻，可是也得到了一些些安慰。一些些朋友的陪伴。很愉快的度过了今天晚上。
今天，让我体会到‘珍惜’是多么重要的学问。
真的要‘珍惜’眼前的一切一切。。。。
她／他／它不会永远是你的。
很沉，很沉重。
前3天还和他有说有笑，今天他却躺在箱子里面，笑容没有了。就这样安静的睡在里面。
得知他‘离开’的讯息有两天了，没有什么感觉。 可能是还没能来得及反应吧。
直到今天，当我手上拿着两支香，突然心感觉重了起来。 脑在想着3天前的对话，今天忽然变成我替他烧香了。
向前两步，望了他一眼。
双眼闭着。很安详的躺着，睡着。
就这样。。。 我再也不会看到他了。
坐在一旁，等待着。 心想了好多好多。
旁边两个女孩，都哭得很凄凉。 嘴里喊着爸。。。爸。。。爸。。。
死者的太太，却一直痛哭不停。
让我心都痛了起来。 眼泪也跟着掉下来了。
伤事分三段。
第一段 棺材要关封的时候。
第二段 棺材要推进车子的时候
第三段 棺材要推进火化的时候／入土的时候
这三段都叫人看了痛心，心酸啊。。
尤其是第二段，车子要离开了，太太却不能跟上来。 只能在屋里痛哭。我也不知道是什么礼节。 太太不能送老公到火化场。 一个和他过了一辈子的女人，没得送他最后一段路。可见是多么伤心的事。可是这些就是礼节啊。 只能安慰太太留在屋里吧。
我们跟着车子走到大路，心想太太现在就这样一个人在家了。就这样，再也不能和老公相遇了。再也没能握老公的手了。太太必须面對失去的悲傷以及接受失去的遺憾。
多难受，伤感啊～
到了火化场，他的孩子们，又再次的大哭大喊着爸。。。爸。。。爸。。。
大女儿后来还晕了过去。之前就看她连走路都快不行了。身体无力，两脚没力站了。想必是这几天没好好睡觉休息吧。就这样，棺材没能推进火炉，（因为里面还有在烧着的。 所以要排队等）我们大伙就离开了。
带着重重的心情，回到公司上班。
想想希望今天的ladies nite可以（所谓的）安慰安慰我一下。好让我可以把心变轻一点。
最后，ladies nite忽然被取消了。 好像是丽蓉生病了。
不想就这样呆在家，于是约了WF吃日本餐。
想好好的吃一顿好料。 好让我心情愉快些。虽然没能变的很轻，可是也得到了一些些安慰。一些些朋友的陪伴。很愉快的度过了今天晚上。
今天，让我体会到‘珍惜’是多么重要的学问。
真的要‘珍惜’眼前的一切一切。。。。
她／他／它不会永远是你的。
Sunday, August 23, 2009
下雨了。。 他去了。。
11.21PM : SMS By Ms. Chok (HR Manager)
[ Bangkali GO liow… you know ar? ]
I was listening to 徐佳瑩 - 失落沙洲at that moment when the sms arrived to my mail box. I was so shocked to that news and quickly called her back. She said she got the message from our manager that Bangkali ( our factory supervisor ) passed away just now.
Bangkali is our factory supervisor. He is a Chinese man 50 plus year whom worked in our company for many years. Bangkali is his nickname. Recently, he was asked to stay at home and rest for 3 months, as his asthma illness is getting worse day by day. He just came back to work on May recently, but his sickness can’t fight the raining days.
Every time when it rains, his asthma will become worse. He couldn’t breath properly then.
Just now in the afternoon around lunch hour, he’s face looked so pale and some of the colleagues offered to fetched him to the hospital. He insisted and said he still can tahan.
At around 2.30pm, he came inside the office kitchen. As one of the colleagues saw him, he came out and told us Bangkali is now resting at the office kitchen area. Nobody took attention to it.. … as he always tend to rest there.
Not long, our manager walked into the kitchen and saw him there. Quickly, he came out and told us to quickly bring him to the hospital, as his situation looks very very bad.
Quickly, we had the car key ready, the minyak kapak, the cloth to cover his neck from cold and asked one of the colleagues to take him to the hospital.
We were so scared as we don’t know what else can we do. He looks so weak and couldn’t even walk a step out of the office. He couldn’t breath and he seems to be grasping for oxygen. He took big big breath, but it seems like nothing went into his lungs! He was trembling, his hands were shaking, he couldn’t even hold his HP properly (which he intended to call his daughter).
I don’t know how he felt, but I felt terrible. Unknown what else can we help him, we saw him up to the car. Our manager quickly informed his daughter.
Around 10mins later, a call from the colleague informing us to quickly send another car to Jln Meru as the car breakdown because of no fuel!!
Gosh… second car was up ahead to Jln Meru, met them and bring him to the hospital. Around 4pm, Bangkali gave us office a call that he was ok and he needs to stay in the hospital for a while, and hence asked all the other people to go back office first.
Until just now, the news of him leaving us.
It was said that he was discharge from Klang Hospital at around 7pm and he headed back to his home at Rawang. He rested at home, and it started to get worse again. He was again being sent to the Hospital ( this time the Sungai Buloh Hospital).
I guess the oxygen somehow couldn’t pass through his artery and couldn’t feed his lungs. He left us all behind without saying goodbye.
Felt so sad.... my heart is heavy now. Real heavy~
[ Bangkali GO liow… you know ar? ]
I was listening to 徐佳瑩 - 失落沙洲at that moment when the sms arrived to my mail box. I was so shocked to that news and quickly called her back. She said she got the message from our manager that Bangkali ( our factory supervisor ) passed away just now.
Bangkali is our factory supervisor. He is a Chinese man 50 plus year whom worked in our company for many years. Bangkali is his nickname. Recently, he was asked to stay at home and rest for 3 months, as his asthma illness is getting worse day by day. He just came back to work on May recently, but his sickness can’t fight the raining days.
Every time when it rains, his asthma will become worse. He couldn’t breath properly then.
Just now in the afternoon around lunch hour, he’s face looked so pale and some of the colleagues offered to fetched him to the hospital. He insisted and said he still can tahan.
At around 2.30pm, he came inside the office kitchen. As one of the colleagues saw him, he came out and told us Bangkali is now resting at the office kitchen area. Nobody took attention to it.. … as he always tend to rest there.
Not long, our manager walked into the kitchen and saw him there. Quickly, he came out and told us to quickly bring him to the hospital, as his situation looks very very bad.
Quickly, we had the car key ready, the minyak kapak, the cloth to cover his neck from cold and asked one of the colleagues to take him to the hospital.
We were so scared as we don’t know what else can we do. He looks so weak and couldn’t even walk a step out of the office. He couldn’t breath and he seems to be grasping for oxygen. He took big big breath, but it seems like nothing went into his lungs! He was trembling, his hands were shaking, he couldn’t even hold his HP properly (which he intended to call his daughter).
I don’t know how he felt, but I felt terrible. Unknown what else can we help him, we saw him up to the car. Our manager quickly informed his daughter.
Around 10mins later, a call from the colleague informing us to quickly send another car to Jln Meru as the car breakdown because of no fuel!!
Gosh… second car was up ahead to Jln Meru, met them and bring him to the hospital. Around 4pm, Bangkali gave us office a call that he was ok and he needs to stay in the hospital for a while, and hence asked all the other people to go back office first.
Until just now, the news of him leaving us.
It was said that he was discharge from Klang Hospital at around 7pm and he headed back to his home at Rawang. He rested at home, and it started to get worse again. He was again being sent to the Hospital ( this time the Sungai Buloh Hospital).
I guess the oxygen somehow couldn’t pass through his artery and couldn’t feed his lungs. He left us all behind without saying goodbye.
Felt so sad.... my heart is heavy now. Real heavy~
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Buffet Steamboat at BBK
Had buffet steamboat at BBK yesterday with my mum, bro and sister they all.
Insisted to go there at first, cause I know if it is a buffet, I’ll be crazy eating and won’t stop easily.
We ate non-stop and I guess the *taukeh* also scare of us liow!
If somemore got like us kind of customer ar… they sure bankrupt one!
Hahaha… live prawns into the hot soup directly…. Shhhhh…. And they turn red in the hot soup….
We were so busy… steamboat la… BBQ la.. and also the sizzling part.
Until now also I feel full.. hahaha too kua jiong liow.. but now I see prawn and fishball also scare liow~ Hehehe~
Insisted to go there at first, cause I know if it is a buffet, I’ll be crazy eating and won’t stop easily.
We ate non-stop and I guess the *taukeh* also scare of us liow!
If somemore got like us kind of customer ar… they sure bankrupt one!
Hahaha… live prawns into the hot soup directly…. Shhhhh…. And they turn red in the hot soup….
We were so busy… steamboat la… BBQ la.. and also the sizzling part.
Until now also I feel full.. hahaha too kua jiong liow.. but now I see prawn and fishball also scare liow~ Hehehe~
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Shopping Postponed to Thursday
Just back from Yoon's house.
Shopping was postponed to Thursday as today... just don't seem the right time.
Stay at Yoon's house, as usual., grab all the food in her house... and talk grandmother's stories.
Suddenly.. the idea of Hong Kong burst out from one of them.
Hong Kong la... Hen's Night la... Phuket la.. Singapore la...
Wah~ ~ All I smelt was CASH FLYING! Hahaha~
Shopping was postponed to Thursday as today... just don't seem the right time.
Stay at Yoon's house, as usual., grab all the food in her house... and talk grandmother's stories.
Suddenly.. the idea of Hong Kong burst out from one of them.
Hong Kong la... Hen's Night la... Phuket la.. Singapore la...
Wah~ ~ All I smelt was CASH FLYING! Hahaha~
Monday, August 17, 2009
Yoohoo.. shopping day
Tomorrow ladies night lor… So long no see my beauties liow. Hong Hong agreed to go shopping tomorrow wor…
Go shopping good… I got loads of things wanna buy. Must masuk stock liow. My foundation going to habis la… my Shu Uemura make-up base almost half bottle gone la… Somemore want to buy a new pencil eye-liner (because my current one is not waterproof de)… and shop shop see got anything to get for Lilean’s wedding present.
Until now, no idea what to buy for Lilean and Hong Hong la….
Actually last Saturday was shopping moment with WF. She said go The Curve because she got a bag to see from there. After our pizza dinner, shopped around but do not have what we wanted there. Drove back, drop by Subang Parade.. jalan jalan and finally back to BBT for yumcha. Was a tiring day after all the window shopping. It was really Window shopping as none of us bought anything after the long walk.
Yeuw Meng (YM) joined us for yumcha…and that was second round for him. He came with a red face… like telling people he drank a lot much earlier, which he claimed only two bottles.
Well.. nothing much to say liow.. gotta continue my work liow.
Go shopping good… I got loads of things wanna buy. Must masuk stock liow. My foundation going to habis la… my Shu Uemura make-up base almost half bottle gone la… Somemore want to buy a new pencil eye-liner (because my current one is not waterproof de)… and shop shop see got anything to get for Lilean’s wedding present.
Until now, no idea what to buy for Lilean and Hong Hong la….
Actually last Saturday was shopping moment with WF. She said go The Curve because she got a bag to see from there. After our pizza dinner, shopped around but do not have what we wanted there. Drove back, drop by Subang Parade.. jalan jalan and finally back to BBT for yumcha. Was a tiring day after all the window shopping. It was really Window shopping as none of us bought anything after the long walk.
Yeuw Meng (YM) joined us for yumcha…and that was second round for him. He came with a red face… like telling people he drank a lot much earlier, which he claimed only two bottles.
Well.. nothing much to say liow.. gotta continue my work liow.
~干吧爹~
我妈妈啊。。 每天都在泼我冷水啊。 看我夜夜赶功课， 她就会在后面唧唧咱咱。 说这是我自己拿来辛苦的。 每次都这样。
说我没事做。 拿辛苦来受。
听到她那样说， 我不但没有泄气，反而更加积极叻。
这一定是上帝给我“鼓励”的话。
人生嘛。。。 就是需要这些[冷水]，才会让一个人有争斗的力量。才会产生发奋图强的意念。
家伶。。。 [干吧爹]！！
说我没事做。 拿辛苦来受。
听到她那样说， 我不但没有泄气，反而更加积极叻。
这一定是上帝给我“鼓励”的话。
人生嘛。。。 就是需要这些[冷水]，才会让一个人有争斗的力量。才会产生发奋图强的意念。
家伶。。。 [干吧爹]！！
Mini Assignment Mission Accomplished!
Today woke up whole body ache. Yesterday sat in front of the PC for such a long time. Finally, my mini assignment is done.
Title for our mini assignment is about “Plagiarism and the Importance of Acknowledging your Resources”.
When I first submitted my mini assignment into the Revision draft area, I was so shocked to see that there was a 15% similarity of my assignment with other people’s work.
I have been very careful not to copy and paste from other people’s work. I’ve paraphrased all the sentences… and yet I get a 15% results. After checking my course module handbook, it is stated that the maximum similarity percentage is 15%.
Those plagiarism detection software very scary lor. Those notes I got from where also they know wor! I copied a few wording… 5-6 words in a line also they list out. Somemore got list out which website or book you source from wor…. Wahh… real scary lor.
Quickly amended it yesterday into my own words. Resubmitted my draft and still waiting for the results until now. Don’t know why this time so slow…. It kept coming out a sentence saying *Due to the high volume of papers currently being submitted to TurnitinUK we are experiencing longer turnaround times for Originality Reports. We apologise for any inconvenience this may cause. ….bla…bla…bla*.
Now finished this mini assignment liow… next I’m gonna concentrate on my course assignment. Two module’s questions were out in the first week of August. Have to start doing research for my assignment liow. Another one more assignment still haven’t got the question yet.
It’s a pain in the neck to do research while keeping track of the referencing. Really troublesome lor… sometimes forget ar… then have to go and REresearch back again. Haih~ so ma fan.
Title for our mini assignment is about “Plagiarism and the Importance of Acknowledging your Resources”.
When I first submitted my mini assignment into the Revision draft area, I was so shocked to see that there was a 15% similarity of my assignment with other people’s work.
I have been very careful not to copy and paste from other people’s work. I’ve paraphrased all the sentences… and yet I get a 15% results. After checking my course module handbook, it is stated that the maximum similarity percentage is 15%.
Those plagiarism detection software very scary lor. Those notes I got from where also they know wor! I copied a few wording… 5-6 words in a line also they list out. Somemore got list out which website or book you source from wor…. Wahh… real scary lor.
Quickly amended it yesterday into my own words. Resubmitted my draft and still waiting for the results until now. Don’t know why this time so slow…. It kept coming out a sentence saying *Due to the high volume of papers currently being submitted to TurnitinUK we are experiencing longer turnaround times for Originality Reports. We apologise for any inconvenience this may cause. ….bla…bla…bla*.
Now finished this mini assignment liow… next I’m gonna concentrate on my course assignment. Two module’s questions were out in the first week of August. Have to start doing research for my assignment liow. Another one more assignment still haven’t got the question yet.
It’s a pain in the neck to do research while keeping track of the referencing. Really troublesome lor… sometimes forget ar… then have to go and REresearch back again. Haih~ so ma fan.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
我现在是“像疯了一样”
“像疯了一样”
作曲 汤小康
演唱 齐 秦
歌词：
想知道你是否还是一样
有没有学会比较坚强
你快乐的背后有人失望
你何曾在意当时我也是这样被你伤
想明白为何对我那么冷淡
又回来故事会不会是这样
明知道你不会再回头看
我还是一直以为
一直以为有希望
像疯了一样
越想你就越心伤
我多么爱你
却难逃你的魔掌
像疯了一样
你缺少了安全感
你让我多么难堪
却还是一样把我伤
想明白为何对我那么冷淡
又回来故事会不会是这样
明知道你不会再回头看
我还是一直以为
一直以为有希望
像疯了一样
越想你就越心伤
我多么爱你
却难逃你的魔掌
像疯了一样
你缺少了安全感
你让我多么难堪
却还是一样把我伤
忽然好像大喊这首歌。。。。 真的“像疯了一样”~~
Adapted from Baidu website http://tieba.baidu.com/f?kz=311010726
作曲 汤小康
演唱 齐 秦
歌词：
想知道你是否还是一样
有没有学会比较坚强
你快乐的背后有人失望
你何曾在意当时我也是这样被你伤
想明白为何对我那么冷淡
又回来故事会不会是这样
明知道你不会再回头看
我还是一直以为
一直以为有希望
像疯了一样
越想你就越心伤
我多么爱你
却难逃你的魔掌
像疯了一样
你缺少了安全感
你让我多么难堪
却还是一样把我伤
想明白为何对我那么冷淡
又回来故事会不会是这样
明知道你不会再回头看
我还是一直以为
一直以为有希望
像疯了一样
越想你就越心伤
我多么爱你
却难逃你的魔掌
像疯了一样
你缺少了安全感
你让我多么难堪
却还是一样把我伤
忽然好像大喊这首歌。。。。 真的“像疯了一样”~~
Adapted from Baidu website http://tieba.baidu.com/f?kz=311010726
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Moments of my Life~
At this moment of my life, I must say that I’m happy that I have a bunch of best buddies by my side all the time. Time passes by so quickly and in a swift of time, not realizing, I’m going to be 30 real soon. My friends are getting married. Each one leaving their own homes to create new ones on their own. Everyone has a new journey to go. Others are bringing their babies out for dinner while others are planning for the second kid in their life.
I’m glad and happy that my friends found the one whom they can be together with for their whole life.
I’m now in a situation that, whenever I tell people tonight I’m going to so and so’s wedding dinner, they will eyed at me and question me about when’s mine? How come I’m the last one? Where’s my BF so on and so forth. I’m so numb already and sometimes I just laugh off about it. I even had a buddy asking me “Say truthfully, do you fancy girls?” It breaks my heart hearing questions like that. People tend to pass judgments on people like me, who has never been into a relationship. Whenever I told them I am not in any relationships, people just finds me weird and seems that they could not accept at going-to-thirty-girl-that-hasn’t-been-into-any-relationship-before person.
Well…. In all my life, people come and go. Thanks to my background, I seem not willing to trust men because they are the last thing to be trusted on earth. It’s not like I hate them or whatever, it’s just they can only be friends and not more. I choose to stop right at friends, not that I do not want to be in loved. I choose not to be in any (at least for this being moment). I mean, seriously, I don't think I have anything to offer anyone at the moment for I am just simply too self-absorbed. So, why let a poor soul suffer nuisance? That's about the noblest thing I can do for mankind. Don't you think so?
I’ll treasure people around me, and that’s particularly my most important lesson here.
Upset of the Toilet Rolls
Entering into my office toilet, you can always notice two things. One, the toilet roll is empty and no toilet paper left. Another situation is empty roll hanging there and one full toilet roll at the side of it (on top of the water tong).
Get so frustrated… always charge outside and shout looking for the culprit… you can only hear the air-con’s motor sound! I just don’t understand why the office staff cannot just fill up the toilet roll or were they born with maids to fill up the papers for them?!
We have office maids, but sometimes, these little tiny winnie things, we can do by ourselves de ma… what’s so difficult wor? Just need to walk 5 steps out of the toilet room, take a new roll near the basin and stuck the roll into the “toilet roll hanger”! (Btw, what’s the proper word for that thing?) Change the roll and another 5 steps out to the rubbish bin to throw the empty roll.
Simple steps and yet all my staffs are waiting for SOMEONE else to do it. You wait for me… I wait for you GAME!
We all colleagues ma… same same in one office from 8am to 5pm. Everyday also meet face one… except Sunday la… Talk gossips from Andy Lau to Teoh Beng Hock la… from
Sad case la!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
08-08-09 saturday nite
Ting Ting came over to BBT for steamboat, asked me to join her since last week. Since I was not busy, I went there for a dinner with her and Tramy. She kept on persuade me to record a short birthday wish for Ron, and she assure me that Ron will see the short clip when they meet in HK for the birthday bash gathering.
We met at Aeon Jusco and he brought me to Botanic Club. Where on earth was that? I have no idea. Didn’t wanna park my car at Jusco (cause need to walk to the parking ticket payment to pay money when out), I just followed behind his car.
Guangzhou Little Stuff 16-7-09
Little stuff and photos about my Guangzhou trip on last 16-7-2009.
Nothing much actually, I don't usually take photos there, it's a business trip anyway. All photos are related to my work. Nothing very personal la.
One desserted company we went to... the stupid bus driver told us it was around 100m from the place he left us, and indeed, the 100m looks.... like 5km to me lor!!!
Our Sichuan Dinner... we ate this fish for two days la! It was... quite nice.. spicy and sour..... Sichuan Style.
Look at the dry chillies... like no need money one. Three person, we ordered two big bowl!!!
The ever-busy Beijing Road
Wanna take the Beijing Road signboard... end up... failed!
Look at the lantern.. so Chinese style... what am I talking la.. it sure was Chinese Style ma... China wor!
My Curry Fishball~
Yummy sotong.. but a little... tough
I don't know who is this..... just that she was doing some modelling in front of that Coke Watch and many camera man is zooming at her!~
China style Scratch for Money Ticket!
It's always nice to stop by here for a drink after a long walk at Beijing Rd.
Beautiful Lantern along the way.
At a street where there is a line of flower shops
Blue rose... with silver powder! Nice one huh~
My hotel is located beside this 夜总会. Every night, the girls will line up like this towards the staircase. Every person that passes by them, will be greeted “晚上好。。。欢迎光临”. So.. every night, we can hear them greet the same thing over and over again! Anytime I go to the lobby... the girls will stand there and greet. Eventually, until 10pm, the girls are gone one by one. Go where... no idea liow~ ~
Nothing much actually, I don't usually take photos there, it's a business trip anyway. All photos are related to my work. Nothing very personal la.
One desserted company we went to... the stupid bus driver told us it was around 100m from the place he left us, and indeed, the 100m looks.... like 5km to me lor!!!
Our Sichuan Dinner... we ate this fish for two days la! It was... quite nice.. spicy and sour..... Sichuan Style.
Look at the dry chillies... like no need money one. Three person, we ordered two big bowl!!!
The ever-busy Beijing Road
Wanna take the Beijing Road signboard... end up... failed!
Look at the lantern.. so Chinese style... what am I talking la.. it sure was Chinese Style ma... China wor!
My Curry Fishball~
Yummy sotong.. but a little... tough
I don't know who is this..... just that she was doing some modelling in front of that Coke Watch and many camera man is zooming at her!~
China style Scratch for Money Ticket!
It's always nice to stop by here for a drink after a long walk at Beijing Rd.
Beautiful Lantern along the way.
At a street where there is a line of flower shops
Blue rose... with silver powder! Nice one huh~
My hotel is located beside this 夜总会. Every night, the girls will line up like this towards the staircase. Every person that passes by them, will be greeted “晚上好。。。欢迎光临”. So.. every night, we can hear them greet the same thing over and over again! Anytime I go to the lobby... the girls will stand there and greet. Eventually, until 10pm, the girls are gone one by one. Go where... no idea liow~ ~
ROM at Klang Hokkien Association on 08-08-09
08-08-09 marked an unforgettable moment, for Lilean and her newly-wed hubby Edison.
She must have gotten herself up very early in order to get that look.
Look at how beautiful Lilean was. Looks like a Korean princess leh~
See.......all my best friends….
I showed this photos to my colleagues ar… you know what they told me… Eh..
Shit them! Hahaha…
I also duno why wor…. But actually those girls havta thank me lor. Without me.. you won’t see they were THAT beautiful de lor!!! Hahahaha~
I’m so honored to be able to befriend girls that are so beautiful, not only in the face, but beautiful in their hearts too.
At the same time... coincidentally met Seow Chen there, accompany her friend's registration.
Hong Hong and Mrs. Swee
Regrettably short~
Next, it was Lilean and Edison’s turn.
The witness was Lilean’s mum and
Both woman smile until can see teeth no see eyes lor!
While waiting for their turn.
Where are they looking huh... not paying attention to the camera!
Take Two... finally~
So seriously looking at their documentations.The signature signing and finally… the official documents are being witnessed.
Pretty Couple
The exchange of Wedding... la la la~
Wow.. that was certainly a BIG word to me lor!
Officially Man and Wife~
Mr and Mrs Swee Family
Beautiful ladies~After the ceremony, we went for a short lunch at Secret Recipe. We did not join the couples for lunch even after strong persuasion from
And for the two ladies... they ordered Kids Meal! Yup.. both of them DO have the CRITERIA to order Kid's set meal.... Hehehe~
Later on, three of us buzz back, as I still need to rush back for work.
Luk Luk at Bayu + BBT
My colleague shared with her relative to open a new Luk Luk style restaurant. Last two weeks, I went there with my sis & bros. It's located at the intersection of Bayu and Bandar Bukit Tinggi. I don't really know how to explain where the location is, but I can bring you there, if you wanna have Luk Luk there.
Call me ya....
Yummy~
Fresh stuff~
The fantastic and yummy chicken wing.. nicely marinated... Good.
The must-recommand thing - the Chilli! Hot... real hot and spicy... eat until you will running nose la... sweat la... all come out!
Call me ya....
Yummy~
Fresh stuff~
The fantastic and yummy chicken wing.. nicely marinated... Good.
The must-recommand thing - the Chilli! Hot... real hot and spicy... eat until you will running nose la... sweat la... all come out!
Monday, August 10, 2009
My Assignment Draft - GONE!
Last trip to Guangzhou, I borrowed someone else's laptop there in order for me to be able to do my assignment draft.
I did several research and drafted out my assignment on the topic "Plagiarism". It was a rough sketch of what I was about to put into words.
I returned the laptop back to him, without backup as I do not have any pen-drive with me in the airport.
Until yesterday, I told him to thumb-drive it to me..... and this morning he told me.... his laptop got head-wired and he couldn't start the PC and he somehow formatted the whole thing.
And... my draft work was gone!
See.. how good God treats me.
HE must have known that my draft wasn't good enough or maybe still got lotsa mistake.
So HE made me to REDO my work. HE gave me a chance to do it again...
OK, I wasn't too upset, because upset also no use la... My draft and researches won't come back de la!!!
I'll rather start searching for info now itself. KAMBADEH!!
I can do it... noone can stop me from that~!!
I did several research and drafted out my assignment on the topic "Plagiarism". It was a rough sketch of what I was about to put into words.
I returned the laptop back to him, without backup as I do not have any pen-drive with me in the airport.
Until yesterday, I told him to thumb-drive it to me..... and this morning he told me.... his laptop got head-wired and he couldn't start the PC and he somehow formatted the whole thing.
And... my draft work was gone!
See.. how good God treats me.
HE must have known that my draft wasn't good enough or maybe still got lotsa mistake.
So HE made me to REDO my work. HE gave me a chance to do it again...
OK, I wasn't too upset, because upset also no use la... My draft and researches won't come back de la!!!
I'll rather start searching for info now itself. KAMBADEH!!
I can do it... noone can stop me from that~!!
Friday, August 07, 2009
I'm Back~
Yesterday's flight was delayed almost an hour. Reached home at around 5.30pm.
So sick of having to travel and wasted so many time...precious time on the journey.
Woke up at 7am leh... then packed this packed that... rushed over to the airport by bus ( 45mins ) and checked-in for the boarding pass. Waited again in the waiting hall for our flight 11.25am... board the plane... waited for another 45mins because of some stupid delay.... reached LCCT at 4.15pm.
Came out of the airport, sat onto the Pajero... again... 45mins travel... then finally reached my house!!
What a journey. 7am until 5.30pm... one whole day doing nothing but WAIT!
So sick of having to travel and wasted so many time...precious time on the journey.
Woke up at 7am leh... then packed this packed that... rushed over to the airport by bus ( 45mins ) and checked-in for the boarding pass. Waited again in the waiting hall for our flight 11.25am... board the plane... waited for another 45mins because of some stupid delay.... reached LCCT at 4.15pm.
Came out of the airport, sat onto the Pajero... again... 45mins travel... then finally reached my house!!
What a journey. 7am until 5.30pm... one whole day doing nothing but WAIT!
Saturday, August 01, 2009
吴卓羲 - 机场之缘
第二天，我很早就起来了。想想。。 还是去机场吧。
难得吴卓羲来马，就去送机一次把。
赶紧叫起妹妹们还有Evon. 结果她们全部都ON.
一辆车满满5个人，就这样糊里糊涂的去机场了。
到了，我们当然先找吃的。。 肚子饿了呀。。 都快10.30am了。
过后，婷婷她们也出现了。我们一起吃麦当劳。谈论着羲羲什么时候会到。
他的班机是1.05PM的。 我们想他因该11点多来吧。
我们纷纷的吃了。。。 包着紧张的心情。。。充满的期待。。等待羲羲。
等着等着。。盼着盼着。。走来走去。
脑里一直猜测他会往哪儿来，哪个方向出现，哪层楼出现， 会不会是对的消息, 会不会隐秘的进站了呢？
一个身体，如何两边跑啊？ 只好走来走去。。像个傻婆是的。
等到快12.30PM了。。 我们从紧张，等到心灰了。想想因该不知从哪个洞逃了进站吧，想想应该是有人早已经帮他办理check-in手续了。
当我和妹妹们讨论还要不要再继续等候。。。 电话响起了。。。
Tramy打电话通报我们她看见羲羲出现在2nd Floor.我们一不说，统统跑到第二楼。。 看见一个黑影子进了电梯。。 我们又在从二楼跑回三楼。。。
还好跑的快。。 在电梯门口看到了他。
一边走一边被粉丝们包围着。
到了counter,他便把行李check-in好了，走了出来和我们聊天拍照。
和粉丝们谈的好像朋友似的。
逗留在counter边瞒久的，还看到胡杏兒和金刚。
拍完照片。。羲羲就走入进站点了。
和粉丝们道别后。。。 我大声地送上“~我等着你回来~”一句歌词，把当场的人都吓到了。 羲羲还故意的表示不是唱给他听的，是唱给站在他隔壁那个人听的。
后来我就加上“不是给他的。。 是给你的。。羲羲!!”
搞到大家都哈哈大笑。
看着他下电梯的时候。。。 大家跑到边看着他。
到了Immigration Counter，羲羲还把头望上来，和粉丝们聊聊。。真可爱！
今天可说是好大的收获！！！
等待的当下．．． 拍了一些无聊照片。 人家还以为我们第一次来机场呢～
我很努力的在追羲羲~
这张也是很棒哦。。 好像《学警狙击》的封面～！！！ 我们大家都要赶到现场去！！！
羲羲在办check-in手续。
My sisters and Myolie... Look how thin she is..
The one and only King Kong! 金刚
她想干嘛？这样也可以啊？？ 我也要！！！！
这是我的结婚照。。。 哎呀。。。不好意思。。 我是说我目前拍过最棒最棒的照片啦！！！
我和杏儿。 她满甜的～
就在我面前。。。 害我呼吸都停止了～
就在这里，我向羲羲高歌“我等着你回来！”
你看他。。。 到了Immigration Counter还抬头和粉丝们聊天~ 多可爱啊~
我的Ah Ron开始离开我的视线了。。 越走越远了~ 再见咯~Bye Bye~
难得吴卓羲来马，就去送机一次把。
赶紧叫起妹妹们还有Evon. 结果她们全部都ON.
一辆车满满5个人，就这样糊里糊涂的去机场了。
到了，我们当然先找吃的。。 肚子饿了呀。。 都快10.30am了。
过后，婷婷她们也出现了。我们一起吃麦当劳。谈论着羲羲什么时候会到。
他的班机是1.05PM的。 我们想他因该11点多来吧。
我们纷纷的吃了。。。 包着紧张的心情。。。充满的期待。。等待羲羲。
等着等着。。盼着盼着。。走来走去。
脑里一直猜测他会往哪儿来，哪个方向出现，哪层楼出现， 会不会是对的消息, 会不会隐秘的进站了呢？
一个身体，如何两边跑啊？ 只好走来走去。。像个傻婆是的。
等到快12.30PM了。。 我们从紧张，等到心灰了。想想因该不知从哪个洞逃了进站吧，想想应该是有人早已经帮他办理check-in手续了。
当我和妹妹们讨论还要不要再继续等候。。。 电话响起了。。。
Tramy打电话通报我们她看见羲羲出现在2nd Floor.我们一不说，统统跑到第二楼。。 看见一个黑影子进了电梯。。 我们又在从二楼跑回三楼。。。
还好跑的快。。 在电梯门口看到了他。
一边走一边被粉丝们包围着。
到了counter,他便把行李check-in好了，走了出来和我们聊天拍照。
和粉丝们谈的好像朋友似的。
逗留在counter边瞒久的，还看到胡杏兒和金刚。
拍完照片。。羲羲就走入进站点了。
和粉丝们道别后。。。 我大声地送上“~我等着你回来~”一句歌词，把当场的人都吓到了。 羲羲还故意的表示不是唱给他听的，是唱给站在他隔壁那个人听的。
后来我就加上“不是给他的。。 是给你的。。羲羲!!”
搞到大家都哈哈大笑。
看着他下电梯的时候。。。 大家跑到边看着他。
到了Immigration Counter，羲羲还把头望上来，和粉丝们聊聊。。真可爱！
今天可说是好大的收获！！！
等待的当下．．． 拍了一些无聊照片。 人家还以为我们第一次来机场呢～
我很努力的在追羲羲~
这张也是很棒哦。。 好像《学警狙击》的封面～！！！ 我们大家都要赶到现场去！！！
羲羲在办check-in手续。
My sisters and Myolie... Look how thin she is..
The one and only King Kong! 金刚
她想干嘛？这样也可以啊？？ 我也要！！！！
这是我的结婚照。。。 哎呀。。。不好意思。。 我是说我目前拍过最棒最棒的照片啦！！！
我和杏儿。 她满甜的～
就在我面前。。。 害我呼吸都停止了～
就在这里，我向羲羲高歌“我等着你回来！”
你看他。。。 到了Immigration Counter还抬头和粉丝们聊天~ 多可爱啊~
我的Ah Ron开始离开我的视线了。。 越走越远了~ 再见咯~Bye Bye~
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